My Letter To You

If I could write a letter to you I'd keep it sweet and short

I wouldn't waste your time at all, I would get straight to the point

I’d tell you that I miss your curly hair and the magnetic pull of your eyes

I’d remind you that you made me laugh, and how sometimes I made you cry

I’d remind you of that spark we shared, and about that almost kiss

I’d say that I'd never find another like you

Oh how you'll be missed

I would beg and plead and pray,

I’d ask that you take me back, not in a week, not tomorrow, but today

If I could write a letter to you I would tell you how I feel

I would take them off, my training wheels I mean

The ones that kept me from reaching out

The ones that made me hide, that made me doubt

I wouldn't lie or exaggerate

I'd tell you it was bound to be, that it was fate

When I write a letter to you, when I find the bravery and am no longer stranded

I’ll share my thoughts, my conscience even my delusions about our future

These things come in time, time that I take for granted

Don't take my letter lightly I beg of you

For when I send it I intend for it to come true

I intend for you to hold it in your arms and cry out

Thanking those who lie above that I found the courage and finally reached out

Decades later I write to you

Everyone says that it is never too late for true love

Everyone tells me that if it's meant to be it will

I know its not true because I know you moved on

I know you have a wife, a daughter and three gorgeous sons

Now how can I accept this fate, this heartbreak, this curse

I love you, I hate you, I despise you, I was there first

I clutch my chest hopeful that it might burst and shatter

Hopeful that I might take my last important breath, as if I mattered

When you wait as long as I have, your opportunities will shrivel up and die

I can almost see you, just barely, there in my minds eye

The edges of your face are blurry and distorted

That tends to happen when you wait as long as I have